Thursday, December 30, 2010

Trag linie....Sinteza?


Trag linie.....Se apropie sfarsitul de an ,doar 1 zi ne mai desparte de un an nou,poate la fel de prost ca cel de a trecut sau poate mai prost...Stiu sunt pesimista insa atunci cand ma uit in urma nu vad decat umbrele a ceea ce a fost candva lumea,atunci cand ma uit inainte vad o negura totala,un haos total...Nu mai vad nimic asa cum faceam asta inainte...Nu mai am puterea sa fiu optimista,nu in conditiile astea...Spuneam inainte ca inca sper in mai bine,ca inca vad un viitor buni insa acum pot afirma sincer ca nu mai vad nimic...E ca un gol imens,o foaie alba ce asteapta sa fie scrisa,cum va fi scrisa noi alegem,totul depinde de noi....Cel putin asa credeam...Se pare ca nu este...Nici macar spiritul Craciunului nu l mai simt ca inainte,ca atunci cand eram copil...Tare mult as vrea sa ma intorc in timp,acum cativa ani cand stiam cu adevarat ce inseamna Craciunul...Revelionul...Despre el ce pot spune...E o noapte ca oricare alta,doar ca bem si mancam si ne bucuram pentru ceva ce stim sigur ca nu va veni...Oare de ce ne punem o masca?De ce chefuim si ne bucuram de noul an cand el nu aduce nimic bun?Eu o consider o noapte normala pe care o petrec cu amicii ,bem dansam ne simtim bine insa eu una nu i urez "bun venit!!!!" ....
Niciodata nu am facut asta si niic nu o voi face,decat atunci cand anul ce vine imi va aduce iubirea ce o vreau ,bani sa traiesc decent sa nu mor de foame...
Pentru ce sunt eu recunoscatoare?
In primul rand pentru parintii mei,care mi suporta totul...
In al doilea rand pentru sora mea care asa cum sunt ma accepta si tine la mine cu toate ca o scot din minti mereu...
Apoi urmeaza prietenii,nu am multi prieteni insa cei putini pe care i am mereu alaturi de mine imi sunt de ajuns sa fiu fericita...
Bunicii nu sunt mai prejos,si ei ma adora cu toate ca alte persoane nu ma inghit si sincer ma doare n cot!
Nu in ultimul rand sunt recunoscatoare ca am cunoscut iubirea apoi dezamagirea,lucru ce m a facut fata de azi,una puternica ce nu se mai lasa impresionata de nimic...
Mi se cam rupe de tot in ultimul timp insa ce pot sa fac? Nu am multe lucruri pentru care sa fiu recunoscatoare,asa ca de restul nu ma mai intereseaza...
Sa nu uit de o persoana importanta pentru mine de undeva din alt oras nu foarte indepartat(B) ce mi a aratat anumite sentimente fara sa fie nevoie sa fie langa mine...Si nu in ultimul rand sunt mandra bunica tanara a doi nepotei superbi porcusori de guineea...Va iubesc nebunii mei scumpi:X

In incheiere nu pot decat sa va transmit ca noul an sa aduca totusi macar speranta in mai bine atat in sufletele voastre cat si in al meu....

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Thanks 4 nothing....





I cant even know what to say
I've been hurt I've been played
and I'm so ashamed
I can't even cry it's that deep
You just lie and you cheat
Like its nothing
see you said that you loved me to and so I trusted you but i guess that subconsciously I knew
but i never met a boy so true
never thought of me and you
but you was just fronting

Monday, December 20, 2010

I will survive...




First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me ....

If it means ...






Hey darling, I hope you're good tonight
And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving
Yeah, I want it but no, I don't need it
Tell me something sweet to get me by
'Cause I can't come back home 'til they're singin'

La, la la la, la la la
'Til everyone is singin'

If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear to you that we can make this last
(La la la)
If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow, this will all be in our past
It might be for the best

Hey sweetie, I need you here tonight
And I know that you don't wanna be leaving
Yeah, you want it but I can't help it
I just feel complete when you're by my side
But I know you can't come home 'til they're singin'

La, la la la, la la la
'Til everyone is singin'
La, la la la, la la la

If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear to you that we can make this last
(La la la)
If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow, this will all be in our past
It might be for the best

You know you can't give me what I need
And even though you mean so much to me
I can wait through everything
Is this really happening?
I swear I'll never be happy again
And don't you dare say we can just be friends
I'm not some boy that you can sway
We knew it'd happen eventually

La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin'
La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin'
(If you can wait 'til I get home)
La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin'
(Then I swear we can make this last)
La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin'

If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear we can make this last

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Behind blue eyes...

Beautiful in my eyes...




You�re my piece of mind, in this crazy world
You�re every thing I've tried to find
Your love is a pearl
You�re my Mona Lisa
You�re my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We'll have our fell of tears
Our share of sight
My only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

And there are lines upon my face
From a life time of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last wine
We can laugh about how time really flies
We won�t say goodbye
�Cause true love never dies
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

The passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes...

The last time I said goodbye...




The first time I said goodbye
I thought I'd lost my heaven
And so I came running back to you
And I made a vow to myself
I'd never lose you again
THe first time I said goodbye
The first time you broke my heart
I never saw it coming
I was as blind as a fool in love can be
And I made a vow to myself
You'd never hurt me again
The first time you broke my heart
Hey, wait a minute, baby
I'm always walking out that door
I stand the pain for a little while
And then come running back for more
So this is it, baby
Yet another sad farewell
I can't stand to live without you, baby
But living with you is a living hell
The last time I said goodbye
You told me, go and good riddance
Knowing that I'd come back to you
But I made a vow to myself
I'll never go back again
The last time I said goodbye ...
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